2. Not attending the bathroom calls immediately
This may be a bad habit because all of us are now glued to our screens, and we delay and delay and delay. Or it may be a neurodivergent thing, but this is also a trauma response. How so? Well, in a narcissistic relationship, you are trained not to listen to your intuition, to suppress your impulses, to disconnect from your sensations and feelings. You’re told that they are wrong, and you cannot listen to yourself; the only authority that can ever tell you what’s going on, if you’re feeling something correctly or not, is me.
You have to come to me to check if you’re hungry or not when that is something you should feel. Over time, we learn to suppress our awareness of the pain and the pressure until it becomes too intense to handle, and then we rush. This is the trauma response that I struggled with for a long time without knowing what was going on. The same applies to pain—physical pain. Because there is so much pain in a narcissistic relationship (I’m not talking about emotional pain now; I’m talking about, let’s say, nerve pain, and joint pain), and there’s no one taking care of you, your body mitigates for it.
Your body gifts you a survival response of suppressing your awareness of what’s going on in your body, and you may not even know that you’re in pain. You may become aware of it after having left the monster. I remember I once broke my toenail, and I was not aware of any pain for a long time. Then accidentally, I looked at my foot and noticed there was so much blood, and I was shocked. At the same time, I panicked; I was like, “What the hell? It’s broken, but I don’t remember feeling any pain.” Then I thought, “Maybe I’m crazy; maybe something is wrong with me.”
However, I then got to know that this is a common thing among survivors. Recently, I got to work with somebody who found out that their foot had fractured 15 to 16 times and healed itself without them feeling anything about it, without them knowing that it had happened. Why? Because of narcissistic abuse trauma and the numbness, the suppression of sensations.
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