Fear is their addiction, and their disgust
My father, another narcissist, took fear to a whole new level. He didn’t just weaponize it; he delighted in it. I remember the way his eyes would narrow when I trembled, how a smirk would creep across his face when he saw me shrink back, my body shaking in anticipation of what was to come. He didn’t just enjoy the power; he needed it. My fear entertained him. It excited him. But at the same time, it disgusted him.
If I froze, if I stammered, if I couldn’t find my voice, he mocked me. “Why are you looking down? Why aren’t you saying anything?” he’d sneer, his voice sharp as a blade. And if I stayed frozen in terror, his rage would only grow. He hated my fear, yet he thrived on it. It was a vicious cycle: I was terrified, he hated that I was terrified, and so he punished me even more. Do you see how twisted that is? That’s the sickness of an evil narcissist. They love your fear because it makes them feel powerful, but they hate you for it, too because it reminds them that they needed to break someone to feel powerful in the first place.
The narcissist’s game: pushing you to the edge
Narcissists have a sharp intuition for fear. They can sense when you’re about to crack, when your voice is about to break, when your eyes are about to well with tears. And they love it. They lead you to the edge, watch you teeter, then give you the final push. In that moment, they feel invincible. Your terror is their drug, and they will create it over and over again.
They will design your life to be a maze of fear. They will build it with words, with silence, with their piercing gaze. They will gaslight you, manipulate you, and trap you in no-win situations until fear becomes your default state. Until you shape your every move around avoiding their rage, their cruelty, their punishment.
I speak from experience. And I know one terrifying truth: when they see you at your lowest, hunched in the corner, sweating, silent that’s when they feel most alive. And that is why I call them evil. To them, you are no longer a person. You are simply a reflection of their power, proof of their control. Your fear reassures them that they have won.
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